Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Packing Shit

Today is packing day. I am going to the house GM and I shared to pack up my shit and kiss away life as I knew it.... Not exactly the nicest way to spend a day off work huh? Am off for the rest of the week and move into the new place officially on Thursday!

The weekend was awesome - I got to drink huge amounts of vino, laze in the jacuzzi and watch hot guys without their shirts on, hee hee! My darling mum was trying to ensure I ate as much as possible and is convinced I am not eating. Needless to say after "Mother's" home cooking, my jeans are feeling a little snug... Not good!

Fuck... I am so not in the mood for going to the house today. Am seriously dreading it and wish there was some way I didn't have to go. GM took leave for today to help me pack. Very nice of him, yes, but also a recipe for disaster.

Wish me luck


Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Fresh Air and Pancakes

Had a different weekend for a change! Friday started off with a few drinks at a local pub in Hartebeespoort followed by a yummy dinner. My ex-mother in law put a bit of a dampener on things when she called like a hundred times demanding I sort things out with her son and wanting to know why I left….

It was then that I decided to switch my phone off for the entire weekend to avoid any potential “pissedoffedness”. Snuggled up to watch a few DVD’s, chick flicks – oh sweet joy!

On Saturday I spent the day walking around with “hottie from the office” and eventually we ended up eating pancakes and guzzling one beer after another – too much fun . I like him – he is yummy and such a gentleman (aaah)

Am on leave from tomorrow for the rest of the week and I can’t wait to get the fuck out of this office. Going to my folks for the week and guess what? Hottie is coming with and his brothers are joining us for a biking weekend through the bush….. Could turn dirty (erm the biking, hee hee)

Last night I met GM at the house to discuss the division of our stuff. Eeek, what an anticlimax after the weekend. He is now on “Calmettes” or some fucking herbal “calm your nerves” crap. Apparently his mother brought them for him – no comment. The discussion went off okay and at least some progress is being made. The puppy has grown so much and we spent ages playing in the garden.

Anyhoo, must get working if I am going to leave this dungeon at a decent time today!


Friday, September 19, 2008

The end.

I signed the lease to my new place today! I am sooooo excited and have a million ideas as to how I am going to furnish the new place.

Yesterday, as I was busy getting into my car to leave work, there was a white envelope with lavender stuck all over it from GM. I figured he took my spare keys to get into my car. He had (for the first time since I have known him) written nearly 20 pages to me. The first part was a letter and the remainder was 250 things he loves about me....

I was gutted. Some of the things made me laugh and think of little moments we had, others just made me incredibly sad. I can't go back now. It just wouldn't be right, not now anyway!

So there is amazing eye candy in my office at the moment and one hotty just seems to be around all the time... Yum!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I am off to the mountains!


Thursday, September 18, 2008

Chapter 26 – Done

I am in disgrace for not having written anything in such a long time. Believe me when I say there has just been no time and on occasions I just couldn't bring myself to write – too many fucked up things going on in my head I guess.

Mmmmm, where to begin? Well I guess everything started when my boss nearly killed himself on a motorbike. Work took on a whole new meaning after that and consisted of late nights and bitching left right and centre!

The clanger ladies and gentleman is that I left GM. It’s over. Last week Tuesday, I got home from work, asked him something and the next thing I knew I was breaking up with him. Four fucking years pissed away. It had been coming for a while and I kept hoping and trying to block out that which was blatantly obvious.

So, I have found a place to rent – really nice and spacious and move in on the first of October – hectic stuff. I am both elated and distraught at what the future holds. On the one hand I cannot wait to be on my own and get things going, on the other I kinda miss the companionship and my comfort zone.

It was a helluva step for me to take and I hope I made the right decision. Am not really ready to talk about the shit that went down, baby steps for now.

Missed writing and will make a concerted effort to get back on the bus and just find “me” again!


Ps. I get to furnish MY home anyway I want – whoo hoo
PPs. I may have met someone …..